The Nine of Mine

I’m unsure if I have really terrible timing or if something else is at work here. I finally began writing, and I was enjoying it. Suddenly, I have become overwhelmed with work from my full-time job, fundraisers for my daughter’s senior year, fundraisers for extracurriculars for both of my kids, and then the normal mom duties. I have a draft on here that is in progress, but the last time I logged in was at the end September until I started writing this one sentence at a time toward the end of October. I feel exhausted most of the time. I have worked on this for a couple of weeks just trying to squeeze in an explanation. I have not given up on finding my way along this road I’ve been directed to travel, but I have reached a long stretch of the path that is covered in quicksand it seems.

Work is always busy, but it has been far more chaotic lately. I train new employees how to use our electronic health record, and I provide additional clinical trainings to our new employees who work in our mental health services. I had two of the largest groups I’ve ever had while also trying to teach my new employee whom I supervise how to teach everything. One of those groups had me starting a blog post questioning if common sense is on a decline. Not only was their group very large for all that we have to accomplish, but all types of common sense were missing. The one that irks me the most is the common sense of how to behave as an employee. I knew there had to be something else at work because I have never had more than a couple of people who did not care and presented themselves in such a way that they did not care that they were putting their lack of motivation on display. They were on their phones, they would be obvious they were having conversations with other people, or admit that they were responding to an email. I can handle people who have trouble understanding, but I have little patience for people who do not care and work in this field. The fact that the entire group of case managers acted as though they were bored and were too good for the training – and bombed each assignment – still has me seething two months later. Because this bothers me so much and because of the number of people, it really has me convinced there is more at work here – a spiritual attack to not only dominate my time, but also hurt my spirit.

If you find yourself working toward your dreams and it feels as if everything is going wrong or you are suddenly being pulled away, look closely at the message. God does not give you bad things in life or do things to hurt you. If you need redirection, He speaks directly to you. Now, the enemy will do anything and everything to slow you down, to decrease your motivation, to steal your energy, and to stand in your way. That is how you know you are headed in the right direction. Let God use those things to further your story.

Keep going! Keep chasing your calling! Satan cannot have what you do not hand him. Even if you move at a snail’s pace (through quicksand) like me, keep moving.